A Mother's Strong Love

She said I was her favorite,
My other brothers couldn't stand it,
I said she was mine,
My daddy started crying,
Then I realized how important I was to her,
But she wasn't as important to me as much as my friends were,
I started looking into the Thug Life,
To my parents it was an awful surprise,
I was too ignorant to care about their decisions,
Then at one certain point I just couldn't stand them,
They were seeing I was becoming a dreadful son,
I didn't appreciate the things that they've done,
When they put me in those cuffs, you had a panic attack,
You cried to the police if you could have your baby back,
You're face was full of tears, you couldn't seize them in,
You couldn't believe the fact they were taking me to the pin,
Before they took me, I attempted to give you a kiss goodbye,
But you refused to let me, that nearly made me cry,
I couldn't sleep thinking what I've put you through,
Everything I've done to the family, but most prominently you,
You had lost me to the streets and you couldn't stand it,
One day I arrived home, and there was the ambulance,
You had a stroke and they were taking you away,
Trying to put you into the safest place,
I tried to visit you but they wouldn't allow it,
I immediately stood there alone and felt like a coward,
Momma I knew you would always die for me,
But I never thought you would die because of me,
I had then understood what I've done was so wrong,
But I never discerned love could be so strong,
As I'm writing this, teardrops slide down my face,
Knowing just my actions practically put you in your place,
Now when I stare deep into those eyes,
I thank God that he's kept you alive.