SOMETHING IN LIFE THAT MAKES YOU REALIZE HOW FRAGILE WE ARE

It's almost a year ago when this happened.

I have a lovely wife, she is always cheerful, funny, smart and always makes me smile.
Five months after the wedding, we were very happy when the pregnancy kit showed positive.

When she was 8 months pregnant, suddenly she got a high fever and very painful headache. I was worried and checked to the hospital. She was diagnose with Dengue haemorrhagic fever (DHF) which was caused by a dengue virus spread by Aedes Aegypty mosquito.

The first day
So she was treated in the hospital to maintain the trombosit level. I always double checked with 2 doctors, an internist and her pregnancy doctor (OB). Actually this disease is quite common in my country, but the situation is different here. She cannot take medicine because it can effected to my baby. She's 8 months pregnant!

Every morning the doctors do the bloodcheck and the trombosit level still decreasing... Healthy person has around 400 trombosit level, yet my wife decreasing every day..

The second day,
In the hospital, her trombosit level only 90 remaining. I slept only 2-3 hours a day and always praying all the time.. She still could smile and talking to me. I was so afraid and kept away all the negative thoughts that could happened to my wife n baby.

The third day,
I was hoping that the virus is gone and the trombosit level increasing.. because under 100 is very serious. And the bloodtest result was only 32 trombosit level! I was shocked and my whole body was trembling... i discuss with the doctors about the worst case scenario.. and it was horrifying. The internist said that she could be in shock anytime and if we did a caesar birth, my wife could not be saved because no trombosite to stop the bleeding.. And the OB doctor also said that the lungs of the baby was not ready. It's very hard to smile in front of my wife and pretend that everything is allright..

She was bedrested to prevent bumping or inner bleeding that can cause her death. I never saw my wife so quiet n and sad... and that's really killing me. I never left her bed, i feed her, i took care of her "dirt n pee", i did my best to save my family.. yet the thoughts that anytime she could be gone with 8 months baby still makes me trembling all the time.

The fourth day,
I'm pretty sure that the trombosit level is stable and increasing, but the results was only 11 trombosite level! I always praying, sang by her side to make her calm.. i never saw my wife so pale, so quiet, n murmuring... she's conscious but she didn't remember anything at that level. I was praying and asked to all my friends and family via text msg to pray for my lovely wife. My wife was becoming harsh and rude because of the pain.. and she's not completely sober. At some point, suddenly i fell down like i had no legs n trembling real hard..

then i text message one more time... to God. I wrote down all my feelings, how i could not live without them, how painful i was to see my wife in pain, how i could burden her pain and replace her place, etc.. then i sent the text message. The number is 1

The fifth day,
Minutes felt like hours.. and when the bloodtest results came, the trombosit level was.... 9 !!!! only nine yet she's still alive... i could't feel a thing at that time.. i contacted the doctors like 8 times a day. They too tried to make me accept the situation. That day, i held her hands almost the whole day. When she opened her eyes, i tried as hard as i can to make a funny faces and said that she's better and better..
Then the hospital called me to the office and asked me to sign a letter. The letter was like "You don't sue the hospital if worst case came". I was shocked and asked why i should sign it. They said it's the rules when they wanted to give her a medicine that could danger my baby or her...and only small chances that the medication worked.
I did sign it with a trembling hand..not a signature, only my name.
The whole 5 days, i was alone treating her. I don't know why my family or hers stood by my side.. maybe they think my wife's situation was not too dangerous. They checked her in the first and second day.

So that's it, i came back to my wife's hand and kept praying and singing. Then the doctors said that the bloodtests became 30 minutes periode.

and the after another bloodtest and before the high risk medication given to her, The Lord answer to all my prayers.. the trombosit level increase from 9 to 45. Thank God!! I jumped around like a kid, felt the greatest feeling ever.. Eventhough my wife is still weak, but if the trombosit level increase, it means the virus already fading away.

oh my, i never went home for 6 days and i learnt a precious lessons.. which are, no matter how much money you have, how successful you are, how powerful you are, YOU CANNOT BUY SAFETY IN LIFE..

and the second lesson is: Jesus never allow a test that you cannot handle

A month after that,
Gabrielle came and complete our life.. Gabrielle means GOD IS MY STRENGTH.

My wife and i are so blessed. We live a complete and happy life nowdays because we knew that we had each other and we got Jesus that keep telling us that it's safe.

I thank God for my life, my family, my happiness,

Last night was my second anniversarry with my wife and i really thankful for the life that i have..

I share this n hope that all of us could try our best in life with the power of love and leave the rest to HIM.

God Bless You All