Innocence Lost

The moment I realised All the suffering of the World From nuclear storms To poverty and woe   I saw my own image There in the mirror I realised then that it was all For nought   I wondered then at my young age What would become of my life ahead I questioned why things should Be this way   I saw death, war and despair I suffocated in that time Desperate for air The realisation impossible to bear   I struggled at, "Why," My childish innocence lost I thought for weeks Of ongoing despair   I pondered the hopeless Days for us all I struggled at the darkness Given instead of joy   Tears fell from me For the collective pain Tears of sadness Tears of shame   Nothing erased the moment of despair Realisations of my lost soul Never to be regained Never a human thing to share   Was I now embittered, cynical and dry? Was I now grown up No longer shy Finally filled with shame?   No reassuring words came my way Nobody to comfort me in the pain Words I could not confide Bottled up at my lost sense of pride   I worked on it all, in my own childish way Rationalised feelings like a shrink in a child Came to conclusions that only an adult would find A still hard sense was there left behind   Those days I played in sunshine and scents A memorable place filled with riches and joy Happiness was given me That is confirmed   After weeks I decided to make up my mind That what I would choose was a poetic mind Take all the pain move it around Throw down the ashes to fertilize ground   Decades have passed my hair grown long Innocence lost far from that song Nothing has taken the memory still But sweet words I sow for the darkness instilled.