Illusive Control

{You have no choice. YOU are not personally responsible for the events that unfold. Can you predict or delay death?

Give it a rest. Stop being so concerned about results, let it be what it will be. {You have no choice. YOU are not personally responsible for the events that unfold. Can you predict or delay death? Can you eliminate terminal illness? Will you prevent financial collapse? Do you have the power to MAKE someone you love stay with you if he/she doesn't want to? Can you prevent others from misunderstanding you or resenting what you do? Can you make something occur before it is time? Can you turn water into wine?

Now is the time to release the thought of 'supposed' control in any avenue of your life. You are losing your vital sexuality and attractiveness in the midst of your holding on. You are not now nor have you ever been in control of any aspect of your life. 'It' is just an illusion you have clung to in order to survive. But, now the continued existence in your personal space requires you to submit to something much higher than yourself and your contrived methods. Admit it: what you are currently doing is not filling the tub, anymore. {Or, it so exaggerated, the overflowing water {emotions} is running all over the bathroom floor.} Stop the crazy shenanigans! You are frantic with undue worry, concern and tension headaches. Nothing you are doing or saying is giving you any authentic resolution to the unrest you are presently experiencing. Accept the fact that you don't have a clue as to handle the 'mess' you currently walking through.

That's not the real issue, however. The genuine unrest and irritability you are showing in you demeanor, is arising from an inability to express your innermost talent. How long has it been since you drank a PEPSI with a bag of peanuts dropped in it? {Or, savored a Moon Pie with an ice cold (slivers, inside) RC Cola?} Instead of getting back to your basic roots, you have gravitated so far away from your core, it's not even funny a little bit. What you really want is simple. You desire to be unhindered, unburdened and unhampered. But, do you know how to go about simplifying your life? You begin by ceasing all fake activity. Be real or don't squeal. {That means stop complaining if you're unwilling to quit playing the mind games.} "What? You didn't think you were faking?" Come on, now. You KNOW what you're doing. Don't play dumb at this juncture.

Faking would include: pretending to be interested and concerned when you're not, smiling when you can't hardly tolerate the person or conversation, performing duties and or functions which you have no interest in the least but because it benefits you in some other tangible way, you continue to do it. As long as you continue on the same path that you are currently traveling, you will arrive at the same place of conflict. As long as you remain fixed on the erroneous idea that you can determine the outcome of any matter in your life by striving to bend the road, you will be filled to the brim with unending anxiety.

It's a matter of your stopping all 'judgmentalness and opinionatedness.' It's a matter of your declaring to yourself that you are wrong in your utilitarian approach. Making so many distinctions cause you unnecessary ambivalent turmoil. Give it up, let that which is trying to make itself evident in your life arise. How much more apparent do the signs and symbols have to be? Find the Red object this instant. What is it? Where is it? What does it have to do with you? When you leave your house, discover the first object that is deep purple. Relate it to in your present circumstance. You can see the blatant evidence, all around you, in your contrary struggle. Those things that seem to be bothering you the most are the gates that will deliver you into your personal greatest treasure.

You are not stronger in physical force, mental agility, emotional stamina, financial solidity or spiritual resolve to resist the swiftness of destiny knocking at your door. Open wide the gate and greet the visitor of polar opposite expectations. Embrace without ridicule or recompense. The constant inner inconsistency you are experiencing is due to your not allowing the truth to descend in fullness of surprise. You never expected to be attracted to that person or to be working that position or involved in that capacity. So what? Everybody's 'gotta' story. The characters are weird, the scenes are bizarre and the plot is unduplicable. Up for the revealing surprising adventure?

Yes, surprise. You are encountering something that is so totally different from anything you have ever known before. You will respond in disbelief. Let the opposite road lead you to your specified destiny. Unwarranted fear is a blockage that must be flushed away. Not the fear normally associated with the newness of encounters but the fear of ignorance and intolerance you have long nursed within. Eat more strawberries! You don't know the artistic depth and length of which you are capable. You have digested a certain way of life that is not altogether sufficient for your taste. Shock yourself. It's coming anyway, whether you like it or not. So agree quickly to join the 'river raft'. Go with the flow of the uncalled for and you will be called forth to share in a certain happiness you have yet to experience. Don't ever assume there's nothing new to enjoy or discover. What are dreams made of?